Film short abstract:

The video is a personal attempt to resist to the propagandistic historical narratives and the monuments that identified with these narratives. It is a feminist gesture to resist to the violence and its celebratory symbols through a a scream.

Film long abstract:

The video is a personal attempt to resist to the propagandistic historical narratives and the monuments that identified with these narratives. It is a feminist gesture to resist to the violence and its celebratory symbols, such as a tank as a monument for commemoration. It is an artistic attempt to speak out about what is hard to put in words but accumulated in body. It is an attempt to break the ties with the narratives that enforced on me due to my mother tongue. When it is impossible to write or to create, and the art lost its meaning - i choose to scream.

The video is a momentary reaction on the events of August 2022, which took place in Estonia, in Narva, my home town. Since the war in Ukraine escalated, the removal of Soviet monuments in Estonia became intensively debated topic followed by the government’s decision to demolish any Soviet attributes and monuments from the public spaces. The tank monument in Narva became a stumbling block between the views of different communities within the country. It has especially became symbolic and problematic because it stood right at the border with Russia, on a riverbank of Narva river, facing Estonia. In the final scene I am standing on that riverbank facing Russia. As I grew up in Narva, I felt an urge to speak up about the situation with the monument and the brutal colonial war in Ukraine was a backdrop for it.